**I think I mentioned in an earlier post that I felt God was leading me to begin thinking about going to grad school for Occupational Therapy...well, I'm most certain of that now, I'm just a little unsure where He wants me. There are no OT schools in Charlotte, so inevitably I have to move. One of the biggest things I learned in Africa last summer was that I needed to relinquish all control of my life to God. I still struggle with that daily, but I'm becoming more and more cognizant of when I begin to make a decision without fully consulting God. So, I'm applying to several different OT schools around the US and praying that God will open or shut doors into the programs as I receive my acceptance or rejection letters. I honestly don't have a preference where I go to school, so I actually feel comfortable handing that decision over to God. I mean, I wouldn't really want to move to North Dakota or Nebraska or somewhere like that, but if God wants me where the winters are freezing cold, then I'll just have to accept that and hopefully get over my Seasonal Affective Disorder. Either way, I'm genuinely trying to be open to whatever path God sends me down, because I realize how much easier it is to follow His will when I allow Him to take the lead. I will update more on this when I start the whole application process within the next month or so.
**After a year and a half of waiting, wondering, and denying God's gentle voice that it wasn't in His plans to last forever, I accepted the fact that the relationship I had with Matthew was just a period of immense spiritual and emotional growth for me, and realized it was time to continue on with my life. It was a hard decision, but as soon as I made it, I felt like a huge weight had been lifted from my shoulders. Until that point, my life had been almost stagnant, even after my move to Charlotte. Part of me wanted to get on with my life, but there was a bigger part that just couldn't stop denying the fact that things were over. I have said this before, and I will continue to say it for the rest of my life: I wouldn't trade the time Matthew and I were together for anything. Part of who I am today is a direct result of the things God taught me through that relationship. It all made perfect sense to me last weekend when I visited Joshua Harris' church. He said that God puts us through trials, tribulations, and suffering to show us how much He loves us. It is in those tough times that our hearts are most vulnerable and moldable because we fall to our knees and cry out to God for help and comfort. He brings us closer to Him and teaches us the most during these times, even though we may not realize how much we have learned until He brings us out of the pit. We should definitely praise God for His blessings, but we should be even more gracious for the things He teaches us through our pain and tears!
**God answers our prayers when we are least expecting it....much like how you can stare at the night sky for hours in hopes of seeing a shooting star, but are unsuccessful until a random evening you happen to glance up at the sky at just the right moment to catch a glimpse of the thing you had watched for and anticipated for countless hours...Back in May, God brought the most amazing person into my life. At this point I definitely wasn't looking for a relationship, and it took a while of developing a friendship with him before I realized I was attracted to this guy. Prior to meeting him, I had given up hope of finding anyone in Charlotte who met/exceeded my standards, and I decided to just stop worrying about it and let God do His thing. Well, He did just that... After trying to ignore my feelings for Adam a few times early on in our friendship and talking to God about it, I finally allowed myself to accept the cliche that there was "another fish in the sea" (which was something it took me a year and a half to believe), and God brought him right to me! We have been officially together for almost 2 months after developing a friendship that began in May. Not one day goes by where I don't thank God for Adam and thank Him for giving me the assurance that His timing is perfect!
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